Like many of you, I am an organizer, planner, problem solver. I like to think of the end result in order to predict problems, successes and general flow of events.
This causes great anxiety for me and those close to me. I find it hard to just relax and go with the flow 🙂 When I am in “the moment” all the world is in alignment - but let the schedule be off, a supply not be ready, and my insides are CRAZY! I really try hard at keeping it all in - so many around me just see the calm, cool, and collected soul - but my insides are often a wreck.
I always want to write the story BEFORE an event happens. I want to have details in place, envision what it will look like, how people will react, and predict the outcome. I want to ensure everything is top notch, in order, runs smoothly - a vision out of a movie.
More often than not, this leads to great disappointment and despair. Things never go just as we want them to go. There are bumps and holes that must be fixed, there are new journeys along the way.
Philippians 4:6-7 is such a perfect scripture to read, learn and lean on during these times of anxiety. It brings me comfort in knowing He will take away my concerns and worry - allowing myself to just enjoy the ride.
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
So for the past few years - I have been trying to verbally encourage myself to write the story AFTER the event - attend a party, worship service, weekend away - and just BE in the moment ~ be a part of the event, add value to the time, take in the journey of what He has planned for me and those involved.
This has allowed me to enjoy every part of the journey, event, and moment. Every moment of what God' has in mind for the journey - not what I think the moment is supposed to be. I encourage you to do the same - instead of hoping for a story to be - write the story AFTER the event. Enjoy the moment - enjoy what God gives you.